I have been trying to do a post that would summarize the differences between where I am now and where I was during the initial years of this blog. After a few attempts I realize that isn't really possible. Everything comes off lame, contrived. So, I'm just going to write stuff. Things from the past will eventually come up and that way I will update the life changes.

It's funny reading thoughts from the past. Apparently back then, 20+ years ago, I had a serious Starbuck's addiction. It was a recurring theme then. Today, not so much. Starbuck's is still good to me, but I rarely go there. I do still have a morning coffee but only one in the wee hours and it is simply a way to ease into the day. I sit in the quiet and watch the sunrise, listening to the birds waking up and slowly sip coffee until it does its magic and I have to run to the bathroom. LOL

TMI? Maybe, but truth.

Speaking of truth, one important thing I do want to write about is this: 

One mistake I made (and this will come up many times I'm sure) is that I didn’t keep the original blog a secret. I allowed Nicci (the now ex-wife) and other family and friends to know about it. That resulted in my posts being very restricted. I couldn’t be 100% honest due to the repercussions. So many posts are not what I really wanted to say. Some are as close to false as I would allow myself to be. Rereading those posts, I can remember the feel of how I held back, how I posted half-truths and only alluded to things I wanted to say. I remember the frustration of wishing I hadn't let certain people know about the blog. Over time, I'm sure this led to the burnout I felt. Now, after all this time has gone by, I won't have that handicap. I won't let anyone know I'm posting again; except any blogger friends I may be able to contact. Lesson learned.

Something else I noticed from the old days were many posts about "reality TV". The truth there is that I never liked those shows. It was obvious they were not reality. Just a show. That stuff was part of life because of the relationship I was in. Not anymore. I cannot stand those types of crap and since I have my freedom, they are never part of my life.

The only truth I did see in my review of those "reality TV" posts is that I still think Jessica Simpson is a babe. That was real. I honestly don't know what she is doing these days but there was a certain charm about her that I still smile about when I think of her. 

Anyway, gonna stop blabbering on about the past. Time to return to the present..... *sigh